13 Reasons Why S2E6 Script

The Smile at the End of the Dock (2018)

[theme music playing]


[Hannah] Zach, I wrote you a letter.

I poured my heart out, opening up about personal things I hadn't had the courage to admit to anyone.

How hard life was getting. How lonely I felt.

[Zach] I keep to myself mostly.

I don't always tell people things. I'm not good with...

[Mrs. Dempsey] Zach?

...like, drama.

You look good. Very sharp.

You ready for this?

Yeah, I'm all ready. Yeah.

I learned pretty early on not to rock the boat.

You'll do great. To stay in my lane.

You're a good boy. The best son a mother could have.

Don't worry, Mom. It'll be fine.

[Sheri] Don't worry about it.

Okay? He'll be back.

He's sick as hell. He can't go to the city.

He's got no money, no car.

Clay, I'm on your side, okay? [sighs]

We'll figure this out.

Thank you.

Can... Can I trust you? Always.

Do you have any idea where at school these might have been taken?

No, I... I don't recognize it.

Wait, is that...? Bryce.

Wow.

Yup.

[Zach] I try not to be a bully.

[woman] Mr. Baker!

[Zach] I try not to be a victim. What do you expect from today?

We firmly believe that our daughter deserved better and that the school... the school could have done more.

We don't let ourselves forget that. That's how we keep ourselves going.

We're in this together. [woman] Mr. Baker, one more question.

We're in this together.

[man 1] Thank you, sir. [man 2] Thank you.

Olivia, everything okay?

Just hope that dumb kid tells the truth in there today.

Liv, this time, we have actual proof that Hannah told the school that she was hurting.

She wrote that note in class. They did nothing. We're right on this one.

It's a win. [Jackie] I agree.

And it is so good to see you both here.

Though, if I may say, now that we're playing you're a united front, it is helpful to hold hands for the press.

We're not... playing at anything.

[Zach] It's a tough line to walk.

[Dennis] So this bullying that you just mentioned, do you feel pressure to join in when you see it happening?

[Zach] Yes, sir. What type of bullying do you see?

Well, sometimes it's obvious and sometimes it's not.

Sometimes a kid gets roughed up.

A lot of the times, though, it's just stuff that people say.

Especially athletes.

[Dennis] So, what type of stuff do you say?

We brag about things that we do with girls, like... uh... sexually.

Even when they're not true. And sometimes that can get around.

[Dennis] And who's saying these things?

Lots of kids.

[Zach] It's a tough school.

Three weeks before you went to the hospital, you received the tapes.

Do you remember how?

At school?

No, they were mailed to you.

On tape five, Hannah talks about running into you and Jessica at the winter formal.

Remember what she said about you two?

That we looked good together?

No. You weren't at the dance with Jessica. You just talked to her there.

Well... [stutters]

Did you... Have you been studying? Yes, I've been fucking studying.

Clay, I've listened to the tapes, like, four times.

I don't even know if the doctor's gonna ask me any of this today.

I went online.

Some doctors tested Marines that had TBI with dates and memory questions to see if they could continue serving.

I'm not a fucking Marine, Clay. I shot myself in the head.

Mr. Porter is out this morning.

I'm Ms. Paul, and we're going to be watching a very interesting film.

[gasps] Human Centipede?

[laughter]

Well, no. It's not a nature film. [chuckles]

It's, uh...

It's about life after high school, and how it gets better.

That's great, but what the hell are we supposed to do until then?

[Ms. Paul chuckles]

I superglued the DVD player shut.

So now we wait to see how long it takes her to figure it out.

Dude, come on, celebrate me.

My neighbor saw us shooting.

So my dad's calling your dad. Shit.

But now he wants to take us shooting.

So, wait, we're getting in trouble for shooting guns, so they're taking us to go shoot guns?

Essentially, yeah.

[chortles]

Do adults think these things through?

I know, but... No, dude, I'm there.

Fuck, yeah. Yeah, cool.

All right. [chuckles] Who is good with electronics?

[sighs]

This silent treatment gonna last all day? What do you want me to say, Kev?

I was glad to bail you out of jail and wait two hours at the impound?

You said that I should use the time that I have left to do the most good.

Take care of those kids.

And how is assaulting a drug dealer taking care of those kids?

He all but put a price tag on Justin Foley's head.

And what happened to the back window, hmm?

[Mr. Porter] It... It must have happened during the fight.

I mean, we'll... we'll get it fixed. It's not about the car.

It...

[sighs] Look, I'm proud of you, Kev.

Fighting for these kids, doing whatever you can, I get it.

But, baby, there's glass in Mason's car seat.

I want you to do you.

But what if someone from the school finds out what happened and you get fired?

They won't, all right?

And what if you get hurt next time? There won't be a next time.

I promise. Okay?

[Ryan] So...

I'm obsessed with this new life you're leading.

But can I ask you about your old cheerleading days?

Sure.

You ever heard of a place called The Clubhouse?

It's a place where jocks hung out maybe.

No, it doesn't sound familiar.

Anything else you know about it?

Apparently, Hannah went there with an athlete, possibly Justin, long after they broke up. Are you serious, Ryan?

You're really trying to dig up dirt on Hannah?

No, I wasn't. I'm interested.

Yeah, well, your interest tends to end up in your zine.

I would never. I... I was just...

You're right.

I'll drop it.

[Zach] It is especially tough on girls.

It was for Hannah.

To your knowledge, neither Mrs. Bradley nor... any Liberty faculty took any action once this anonymous note was read aloud?

Not to my knowledge, no.

So a note expressing interest in suicide was read aloud in class, and faculty members ignored it?

[Sonya] Objection. Asked and answered. [judge] Sustained.

[Dennis] No further questions, Your Honor.

Hey, Kevin. How you doing, buddy? How's that new class going?

It's all good, thanks. Good. Glad to hear it.

Just helps keep your head down and, you know, focus on work when things get a little messed up, you know.

Like last night.

I'm sorry?

I got a buddy I went to high school with, and, uh, he's one of the lieutenants at the station there.

He called me when they brought you in. It was a misunderstanding.

[chuckles] You know, look, we've all been there, you know?

And apparently, they got that dealer guy there, like, once a week.

But, look, I vouched for you, and he said that they'd all make it go away.

I see. I'm just gonna keep this between us.

[indistinct chattering]

So, yeah, I spent the entire night in my own bed, and my dad only stayed for half of it.

Yeah, I mean, that is everything.

[Jessica] Too easy to get sucked back in to old shit. I can handle it now.

Hey, what's up? Uh... Do you know Michael?

Hi. Hey. Michael.

[Clay] So what did your doctor say, Alex? I'm sorry, I tried.

But they're not gonna let me testify. [Clay] Shit.

Did the doctor say why?


Justin.

Hey, Jess.

I missed you.

Can we go somewhere else to talk, alone? No.

I came back for you.

It's the only reason why I'm here.

If you want me to stay, I promise you I'm here for good.

Look, if you want me to go, I'll go.

Forever, this time.

You said that before. I...

I tried to go away.

I tried to forget about you. I...

I tried so fucking hard.

But I can't stop thinking about you.

Yeah, I think about you, too.

And I wish you were dead.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to hurt you more.

You.

Justin! [students murmur]

[Clay] Justin. [Tony] Justin, wake up.

Justin. Justin. Wake up. Wake up. Justin.

[Tony] Fuck.

Yeah, we gotta get him back to my house. No, I can't do this anymore.

Okay? I'm out. What do you mean you're out?

There is no "we," okay? What the fuck is up with you?

We gotta get him out of here. Yeah.

Come on, Justin. Use your legs. Use your legs.

Did you know he was back?

No, no, we really didn't know.

What does it matter to you? Why do you fucking care if Justin's back?

Because, clearly, you do.

I don't fucking care. You don't know how I feel.

Yeah, you're right. I don't.

Zach, isn't it true that Hannah also reached out to you to talk about her feelings?

Um, yes. And did she write a note to you?

A note that was not anonymous?

Yes. Yeah, she wrote me a letter explaining... how sad she felt about everything.

How she felt really alone a lot of the time.

So you told no one at Liberty High that Hannah wrote you a note telling you how alone she felt?

I didn't know how to.

But isn't it true that you did reach out to her off campus?

Um...

The summer after sophomore year.

The summer after the note. Did you have contact with her?

Yes. And isn't it true that you saw her more than once that summer?

[Zach] Um, yeah, last summer was slow. Most people were out of town.

You take them, okay? Sure thing.

Can I help you?

Hey. Yeah, can I get a box of Mike and Ikes, a box of Hot Tamales and a Diet Coke, please?

No, you cannot have fucking Mike and Ikes and Hot Tamales because you're not a fucking child.

Actually, his mommy says he is. Okay. Fuck off, you guys.

Don't you get tired of the mama's boy jokes?

[Montgomery] Uh, no. No, we don't.

[Scott and Montgomery snicker]

[Zach] So I went to a lot of movies.

What can I get you?

I... just wanted to say that I am sorry... for all of it.

The thing I said about your ass, that wasn't...

And your compliments and, um...

I'm just really...

I'm really sorry.

Thanks.

You're an asshole, but thanks. Yeah.

Mike and Ikes?

Yeah.

And Hot Tamales, too, please.

And... And a Diet Coke.

[Zach] I mean, I guess I even saw movies I didn't wanna see.

[scoffs] You see a lot of movies.

Yeah. Well, this 2001 thing is supposed to be a masterpiece, so...

God, it's, uh... so boring.

Oh, is it? Yeah, but at least it's long.

You should still see it, though, so at least when pretentious people talk about it, you can yawn really loudly.

Okay. Cool, yeah.

So...

[clears throat]

Thanks.

[theme from 2001: A Space Odyssey plays]


So, yeah... that was painful. [laughs]

Right? You're in space. Why aren't you having fun in space?

Why does nobody talk?

Why is the movie so long and nobody talks about anything?

I mean, at least talk about the fact that, holy shit, you're in outer space.

Would you...

ever wanna watch a different movie?

Like... Like with you?

Yes. Yeah. Yeah, I meant with me, as part of the... the plan.

Except not at my house. My mom doesn't let me have girls over.

So, you're inviting me to watch a movie at my house?

I mean, they're never gonna make a movie about Cameron taking a day off.

[ Ferris Bueller's Day Off plays indistinctly]

People underestimate the Camerons of the world.

I mean, they can be surprising.

Everyone thinks when he falls off the diving board that he wants to drown.

But I think he just wanted someone to save him.

I kind of get that, actually. Yeah.

[Olivia] Hannah? [door closing]

Shit. My parents are home early. Uh...

Uh...

Uh, just hide. Like...

[Olivia] Hannah, you up? Oh, fuck.

Honey, are you up?

[both chuckle]

[Zach] No. To my knowledge, her parents never found out.

[Sonya] So you told no one else about the time you spent with Hannah, isn't that correct? Yes.

Then isn't it true that you were ashamed of telling anyone?

No. No, I just...

[sighs]

That was the summer that my dad died.

And I was out of my mind, and I needed someone that I could talk to.

Yes, but, Zach, didn't you send each other hundreds of text messages?

I...

Hundreds? I mean, I... Yeah, we texted.

[cell phone beeps] [Zach] I don't know how many times.

[Bryce] Who is it, Zachy?

[groans]

No one. It's just my mom.

How's she doing? She okay?

She just needs me to come home.

How are you doing?

I'm good. I'm fine.

I'm not good.

My mom...

My mom doesn't even wanna talk about it.

She's acting like life is just, like, going on.

And, I mean, I know that she's destroyed, and she's worried about the future and everything, but she doesn't say anything about it.

My parents do the same thing.

[Zach] We just...

We had things in common to talk about, and things we didn't have to talk about, things we just knew about each other.

[Sonya] That must've been exhausting, keeping that a secret.

Yeah, I guess I, uh... I just wanted to keep the friendship ours.

And in all that time you spent together, all those texts, you and Hannah never became more than friends?

You never told your fellow teammates about her, as you've said they do?

Bragged a bit? No. I would never do that.

Because there was nothing to brag about or because you're not one to do so?

Because it wasn't like that.

What was it like then?

Mr. Dempsey, did something happen between you and Hannah Baker the summer before she took her life?

What? Shut up. [chuckles]

After that, we went on Space Mountain, and I threw up all over her.

And after she broke up with me, I took a long walk through Toon Town.

[both chuckle]

Yeah. How about you? Any bad breakups?

Kind of hard to be broken up with when you've never had a boyfriend.

What? Really? I thought you and...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to...

Everyone thinks I've done a lot of things with a lot of people, but...

Hey, because I'm a guy, people give me shit because I don't do enough, so...

And what have you done?

Are you seriously asking? I am.

Uh, yeah, nothing. I'm a virgin.

It's weird.

You know, 'cause of my reputation, like, people calling me a slut and everything, it made sex seem bad, like this negative thing.

But I don't want it to be. I want my first time to be how I want it, not how everyone says it's been.

Yeah. I actually get that.

[sighs] Feels like there's no one good left in this town to even wanna do that with, though.

So, um...

It's just, I...

It's just you are a good person, and I like you.

I like you, too.

Sorry, what's happening?

I wanna lose my virginity, and I want it to be great.

Like I wanna do it on my terms and with someone that I like.

Would you be interested in having sex?

[stammers]

Oh! Yes!

All right, man, so, who is this girl?

She's, uh... She's from another school.

[Justin] Cool. Yeah.

So what do you wanna know?

Well, what exactly do I need to know?

Well, I'm very happy you came to my office for this chat to...

No, but, seriously, it's hotter when a girl likes what you're doing and she feels good.

["Souvenir" playing]

[Zach chuckles]

I'm sorry, I don't know how to, um...

begin this... [chuckles]

[sighs] ...thing that we're doing.

Is that me shaking or you? Maybe both. A little bit of both.

[chuckles]

♪ It's my direction ♪

♪ It's my proposal ♪

♪ It's so hard, it's leading me astray ♪ I... I hate my body. What?

Why? It's beautiful. Okay, you have to say that.

No. I look at your body every day, and I think it's perfect.

♪ My obsession ♪

♪ It's my creation ♪

♪ You'll understand ♪

♪ It's not important now ♪

[Zach] Mm. Mm-hmm. [chuckles]

[Hannah chuckles] [Zach groans]

Uh...

Okay, yeah.

[sighs]

[gasps]

Does it hurt? Uh...

Just... pressure. Keep going.

[Zach groans] [Hannah moans]

It's okay.

It's okay.

♪ All I need is ♪

♪ Coordination ♪

♪ I can't imagine ♪

♪ My destination ♪

♪ My intention ♪

♪ Ask my opinion ♪ [Zach groans]

♪ There's no excuse ♪

♪ My feelings still remain ♪

[Zach exhales]

[both panting]

Phew.

Was that, uh... Was that okay?

Yeah. It was good.

I could probably do it better if you wanna try again.

We could try again.

Okay.

[both laugh]

Yes.

What? Yes.

We...

We had sex.

Just once? No. We...

It was all summer.

But it wasn't just the sex.

We really cared for each other.

["Your Love" playing]

[Zach] It was amazing... I think.

I don't know how Hannah felt about it.

♪ Running like a fire Burning in the wind ♪

♪ You say you'll take me higher Higher than I've been ♪

♪ It was a feeling ♪ So, I've been practicing.

♪ I never wanna live in... ♪ Practicing what? Figuring out what I like.

I had to get past the initial

"This is wrong. God's gonna punish me and all women" feeling of shame.

[chuckles]

Which wasn't a joke, but... now it's like, literally, the only thing I wanna do.

[moaning, panting] ♪ I don't want your love ♪

♪ If you can breathe without it ♪

♪ I don't want your love... ♪

Holy shit. Right?

This is all starting to make sense now. Right?

♪ I don't know the way ♪

♪ The way that you feel about me ♪ [both chuckle]

♪ I don't wanna stay ♪

♪ If you can be free without me ♪

♪ Don't wanna give it up ♪

♪ Don't wanna give it up ♪

♪ If you can give it back ♪

Hey. Hey.

♪ I never was a dreamer ♪

♪ Never wanted to pretend ♪

♪ When the night comes, I still feel you ♪

♪ In my dreams, you never end ♪

♪ And I want you to be with me ♪

♪ And I want you to be free ♪

♪ And I want you to remember ♪

♪ That I don't want you To fall too hard ♪

♪ I don't want your love... ♪ Hey, do you think we're doing this too much?

Do you think we are?

No. I mean, do you think so?

Are you okay with all this? I'm good.

So should we...? Okay. Yeah. Yes.

[car beeps]

I, uh... I'm gonna meet with Dennis.

Damage control. I'd like to come.

Fine. We're meeting at my house.

I don't want you to feel alone in this, Liv.

Well, that's nice, Andy. [chuckles] I'm honored by your concern.

Can you not give one inch? I'm trying here.

Is there not one goddamn ounce of forgiveness somewhere?

Some... Some kind of understanding that not everybody else is as self-contained as you are?

Forgiveness for what? For which part?

The leaving or the not fighting? This is you, though.

This is our whole life together. Not just this trial, not just Hannah.

You have never forgiven weakness, or imperfection, or struggle.

I forgave... every weakness, every imperfection, every mistake that we made in parenting our daughter.

I guess I'm just surprised that's all we had.

I lied to you. I am living with Valerie and her daughter.

I know.

[glass shattering]

[footsteps approaching]

[front door opens] [intruder rustling]

[Matt] Clay, are you home?

What the hell? Aah! It wasn't me!

Who the hell are you?

[student] "Frequent sexual intercourse." That's what it says.

[Zach] I never told anyone because...

Well, I thought I was protecting Hannah.

Maybe I was just protecting myself.

What the fuck?

[boys chuckling]

I mean, what gives, Dempsey?

You cash in on your v-card, and you don't tell your best friend?

What the fuck, Bryce? What the fuck? It's a joke. Lighten the fuck up.

What the hell is wrong with you? Hey. Hey! Same team, same team.

Chill out.

What's going on, you two?

It's nothing, Coach.

All right.

If it's nothing, I don't wanna see that kind of behavior in here again.

And I don't wanna see it out there. Hear me?

That goes for all of us. Okay?

I don't care who the hell you are out there.

You step into this room, you step across that baseline, you are the Liberty Tigers.

The end. Yeah?

[students] Yeah.

[indistinct chattering]

Olivia, I just don't think we should call him.

I mean, Sonya will tear him apart.

They must know everything about the kid, right?

And we don't.

Lainie did recuse herself, but that's...

Somehow, I'm not concerned about a mother knowing her son's secrets.

That tends not to be the case these days, it seems, with mothers.

Liv...

Our daughter...

I mean, she... becomes a woman, and we missed it?

[Andy] But is this the right response?

We put another kid on the stand and hope for the best?

There's a reason why we kept him off the list.

Clay was devastated when Hannah died, okay?

He was in love with her. He thought she was perfect.

The jury needs to hear that.

All right, we'll have to prep him tonight.

Go ahead and fill out the paperwork. I'll talk to him first.

What the fuck did you do?

Why would you say all of that? You just made everything worse for her.

I didn't mean to.

Clay, I swear to God, it's not a lie.

I'm sorry. So how come no one knew about it?

You were out of town last summer. It wasn't on your tape.

She put everything on your tape?

You didn't deserve her.

I know. I'm sorry.

Fuck you. You just go to hell.

Clay, come on, man. Get the fuck out of here!

[car engine starting]

You have something you wanna say to me?

[cell phone vibrating]

Hey. I've been looking for you everywhere. It's called The Clubhouse.

Wait, what? The place in the Polaroids.

It's called The Clubhouse.

Jesus. I don't care anymore.

What?

How do you go from...? Look, I don't fucking care, okay?

I'm done.

[cell phone vibrating]

I have to take this.

So, I'll see you.


All right, put your guns down, guys. Guns on the table.

We're gonna put in a fresh clip, okay?

Cyrus, look at this.

We're going to eject the old clip like that by pressing that button.

Roll in the new clip like so.

Rack the slide. Okay?

You guys try it. Cool.

Remember, even if there's no clip in there, always treat your guns as if they're loaded.

Okay? Yeah.

All right. Give it a shot.

I really appreciate this.

My wife didn't think it was appropriate to call, but we don't know anybody else we could ask, and Alex has been a good friend to Tyler.

Oh, well, I'm happy to do it. Tyler's a good kid.

You know, we can't change the past, but we can be better, right?

[gunshot]

Dude, what the fuck? I've been waiting outside for, like, 30 minutes.

I'm plateauing.

Plateauing? Yeah.

Apparently, that happens when you shoot yourself in the head.

After, like, six months, no matter how much work you put in, your body just settles into being broken forever.

Come on. You had a rough couple days...

It's not a rough couple of days, Zach.

This is my life now.

My doctor said so.

Pretty sure your doctor didn't say that.

Well, I can't testify.

I can't help Hannah, I can't help Jess. I'm useless.

Well, maybe that's for the better.

What is that supposed to mean?

After what happened to me today, maybe you don't wanna testify. Don't tell me what I fucking want.

Alex... Man, at least you can do it.

And at least you can walk and fuck girls.

Fuck.

Alex. Fuck you!

Alex, don't... Get the fuck off of me!

Fuck my leg and this fucking hole in my head.

And then fuck Justin for coming back for Jessica.

And fuck Jessica, too! Look, man, just...

No! Get off of me! Come on.

Alex, stop.

Fight me! Man, fight me! Calm down, Alex.

Just... I'm not gonna... Fuck you!

Whoa! Stop, stop, stop! What? What's wrong? What's wrong?

I, uh...

[Zach] I, um...

[stuttering] Man... Uh, listen. It's probably just... like, from the physical contact and, um...

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, I am.

My dick works. [chuckles]

Yeah.

[both panting]

We need you to talk about your friendship.

About what you two meant to each other.

Her kindness.

Will they ask me... about kissing her?

They probably will.

But it was just one kiss.

It's important that the jury understands who Hannah really was.

Dennis will ask you what you two talked about, the hopes and dreams that Hannah shared with you, her good qualities.

This trial...

I mean, I've learned things about Hannah I guess I didn't know before.

I understand.

Me, too.

I feel like I didn't really know who she was.

Can you put all of that out of your mind, though, and... focus on who Hannah really was to you?

[Jessica] I couldn't move.

He got on top of me, and I couldn't move my arms.

Or if I did, he'd just push them back down.

He just kept pushing everywhere.

He wouldn't listen.

I can still feel his hands taking off my underwear.

I just feel him all the time.

If I kiss someone, I can feel his breath.

If I touch someone, I just remember trying to get him not to touch me.

God. So it's really fucking stupid that I'm worried about Justin when he's one of the goddamn reasons why I'm dealing with all of this shit.

[sniffles]

[Zach] You fool yourself into thinking that by keeping things hidden, it makes it easier for you to get by.

[Caleb] ...people looking at me right now, facing the other side, and the twos will be with their backs to me.

Let's face our partners.

Let the ones be aggressors, let's have them grab at the neck.

The twos break the grip, throw the palm, grab the shoulders, throw the knee.

[grunting] There you go. Speed it up.

Here, Lucas, you can switch with Selena for a second.

Thank you.

All right? One more time. You're gonna grab my neck.

We're gonna break the grip, we're gonna throw the palm, throw the knee.

All right? We'll switch, and this is with the sound.

Ready? Grab my neck.

[grunting]

There you go. You good? Yeah.

Get back in line. Selena, switch over. The twos are the aggressors.

[Zach] Even though you know you'd feel a lot better if you just came clean.

[hard rock music playing]

Don't drink it so fast. That's a one-way trip to barf town.

[chuckles] [groans]

Sounds fun. Not so, my friend.

[Cyrus] It is done.

You hacked Zach's iCloud account in two minutes?

His password was "zachattack," so...

[scoffs]

[Cyrus] Isn't that the girl that died?

Yeah. That's weird.

What's that?

[boys chanting] Marcus! Marcus! Marcus! Marcus!

Holy shit. This is incredible.

[chanting continues on video]

We have to send this everywhere. No. No, no, no.

No, let's fuck with him first.

No, I mean, I think... I think you're really brave to talk about Justin.

Is there anyone else you wanna talk about?

Bryce maybe? Bryce?

[scoffs] What do you mean?

Look...

I've been the girl who's avoided her rapist in the halls.

Mine was a senior named Mark Perry.

And it's a story for another time, but...

I'm choosing to say his name to you even though I didn't turn him in.

You wanna know why?

Because it's my fucking story to tell. No one else's.

And you should be so proud that you told yours tonight.

I am. Good.

You know, just know that you can always, always talk about it with me.

I get it.

Hugs.

Look, I was trying to help Hannah's case.

[Lainie] By hiding Justin here?

In the home of a lawyer whose firm is trying the case?

Do you have any idea how that could look?

It's not just appearances we're worried about.

Matt, I'm an officer of the court.

Justin failed to respond to his subpoena. He's in contempt.

Look, I was hiding him here because I didn't have any other options, okay?

What about the option of coming to talk to us as promised?

I had nowhere to go.

That's why he had no other options.

My mom is a junkie.

And her boyfriend is...

He's a dealer and not a very nice guy.

I knew that they wouldn't take me back.

Clay and Tony, they found me... and saved me.

He didn't tell you guys because I was too ashamed for anyone to know.

[coughs]

And he's sick with the flu, which is why we were waiting for him to testify.

You can stay as long as you need, Justin.

But I will need to report you being back to the lawyers.

I'm sorry, it's the law. That's okay. I understand.

Thank you, Mrs. Jensen and Mr. Jensen.

Now... who's hungry?

[Mackenzie] Really? You threw up on his favorite boots.

What were you guys drinking? 'Cause he is out cold.

Uh, he said it was his special recipe.

[both laugh]

What were you guys even working on?

Um...

You got a little...

There you go.

He's gonna hate me.

Why? I'm not telling him what happened.

You don't have to either, you know? It could just be our secret.

Like just me and you.

Okay. Thanks.

Yeah.

What are we paying the Walkers' lawyer for if you're just gonna keep secrets from him?

And this was happening all last summer?

No, I wasn't ready. [sighs] And... save.

[camera clicks]

No, I'm not ready.

[whines] I don't wanna go back to school.

Junior year's like the only year that counts on your transcript.

[cell phone beeps]

Oh, Bryce is back and wants to party.

If you want, we can hang with him later. I don't have plans.

Actually...

I don't want my friends to know about this.

Us.

I just kind of want this to be ours, you know?

Um... yeah, okay.

Why would you keep this from me?

'Cause that's how we do things, isn't it? What does that mean?

I don't even know how you feel about Dad dying.

I don't know how you feel about anything.

What if I felt like Hannah did?

Because I have, Mom. I actually have.

What would you do? Zachary Shan-Yung Dempsey, that is enough. Don't say such things.

Why not? This trial...

That girl has put thoughts in your head.

You do not feel that way. You're fine.

Yeah, exactly. [sniffles]

I'm fine.

Well, what about Jessica's party? I mean, you didn't talk to him there.

He was drunk and stupid by the time I showed up.

So why didn't you put it on his tape?

Maybe I was keeping it private for me and him.

Or maybe you were protecting yourself. Yes. I mean, maybe I was.

Maybe it hurt that it meant something to me and not to him.

If I had been in town that summer...

would it have been me instead?

[door opening]

You thinking about Zach?

What? No.

I read that stupid blog.

I have to tell hundreds of people tomorrow what I loved about Hannah, and all I can think about is how she lost her virginity to Zach.

I mean, Zach.

Then, like, a month later, she hooked up with me, and then she freaked out.

But she didn't freak out when she hooked up with Zach? I mean...

What the fuck are you saying, Jensen?

I mean, do you know how many girls I've slept with?

Like, a lot.

Classifies me as, like, a player or something and... my best friends used to think I was the fucking best.

Okay.

Hannah, she sleeps with one guy.

She has a crush on another guy, being me, and she kisses a third, being you.

And it's whatever, it's all fine, right?

All of a sudden, she's a slut?

All of a sudden, you don't know who she is?

You're a dumbass. I'm not a dumbass.

You're dumb. You're an ass. Dumbass.

I'm not the dumbass who got locked out of the house today.

Clay, I didn't get locked out today.

Someone broke in. I...

I didn't see who it was, and I didn't tell your parents.

What the fuck?

I mean, who the fuck have you pissed off lately?

Bryce. It has to be Bryce.

Did he leave anything, or did he take anything?

Fuck. I don't... I was downstairs with your parents this whole...

Fuck.


What is it? Wha...?

Nothing. It's... It's good.

Everything's here.

[Zach] Hannah had nothing to be ashamed of.

I made her feel like she did.

Because I don't tell people things, like I said.

[Bryce] Five tickets for Sudden Descent, please.

Hey, are you still wearing that lacy, black underwear?

[Willem] Yeah, come on, show us.

Oh. Miles and miles of skin.

[Bryce] All right, ladies. Enough. [Montgomery] What? It makes me feel free.

Yeah, just keep the change. Thank you, sweetheart.

So, yeah...

[indistinct chatter]

[Zach] Shit. I forgot my wallet, guys.

I'll meet you out there. [Bryce] All right.

Hey.

Sorry about earlier.

I didn't want them to make fun of you or anything.

They made fun of me anyway.

Right. I'm sorry about that.

Can I make it up to you, uh, sometime?

Uh, you were right before.

Maybe it's best if we just keep this thing between us.

You know, if we end it now, then it stays good. Not complicated.

Yeah.

Yeah, no, that sounds good.

Okay. Cool.

[Zach] Hannah didn't tell me how she felt either.

But now... I guess I know.


And I'll be ashamed for the rest of my life.

And shame burns.

["Had to Hear" plays]

[Alisha Boe] For help finding crisis resources, visit 13reasonswhy.info.

♪ I'm out again on my own ♪

♪ A reflection in the chrome ♪

♪ Of an idle machine ♪

♪ It's been so long ♪

♪ My mind is drawing a blank ♪

♪ Don't know if I can go back ♪

♪ But to live out this dream ♪

♪ It's just my luck ♪

♪ I call you up ♪

♪ I had to hear you ♪

♪ Just to feel near you ♪

♪ I know it's not true ♪

♪ But it's been so long ♪

♪ I know it's wrong ♪

♪ I know ♪


[man] Well done, Ed. Well done.