Grey's Anatomy S3E17 Script

Some Kind of Miracle (2007)

[Addison] Previously on Grey's Anatomy...

[Ellis] I raised you to be an extraordinary human being.

Imagine my disappointment when I wake up after five years and discover that you're no more than ordinary.

[Izzie] An hour ago he was proposing.

And now he's going to the morgue.

You did good.

[blast]

Do you believe in heaven?

[Meredith] There are medical miracles.

[piano music]

Being worshipers at the altar of science we don't like to believe miracles exist.

But they do.

[Aqualung: "Lake" playing] ♪ This house ♪ Things happen.

♪ Is full of secrets ♪ We can't explain them, we can't control them...

♪ This house... ♪

...but they do happen.

Chief, I know the hypothermia is protective to her vital organs, but how much longer do you think we can go on...

I've seen people last as long as four hours.

Yeah, but... No.

This is not. This is Ellis Grey's little girl.

This is my... We're all on the same side here, Chief.

[beeping]

♪ Outside... ♪ Her body temp is at 86 degrees.

She is not dead until she is warm and dead.

We need to warm her up to 98.6 and start her heart.

Yes, sir.

Let's do it. Gastric lavage with the warm fluid.

♪ Lifetime is too long ♪

[beeping]

Addison. I have to go, it's my Jane Doe...

Just... they're waiting... for you, so... whatever you choose to say will...

[beeping]

♪ Listen to me ♪

[Meredith] Miracles do happen in medicine.

♪ I can only say... ♪ They happen every day.

Just not always when we need them to happen.

♪ Are you listening See these empty hands ♪

♪ Knowing it was all for you ♪ Meredith?

She's freaking out. She's not freaking out.

People tend to freak out. Trust me. She's fine.

OK, Mr. I've Been Dead Longer Knows Everything.

You know what, that's why I don't like to be here with you.

Because you don't assess a situation, you just dive right in.

Oh, I'm not the one who got himself all blown up.

All right. You wanna do this now or you wanna do this later?

Oh, I wanna do this... You wanna do this now?

I'll kick your ass. I'm the one with a fresh heart.

You're gonna kick... [Meredith] This is a brain thing...

This is the ketamine neurotransmitter thing, right?

[both] No.

'Cause you'd think if this were my brain doing this the first person I'd want to see, no offense, would be... Doc!

What a good boy.

Hi. [sighs]

Hi, buddy. Meredith.

[dog panting]

This is not your brain on drugs.

This is death. You are dead. You're really freaking dead, dirt-nap dead, no-more-you dead. Whoa, whoa, whoa!

Way too harsh.

Remember, we... we were gonna take it easy, that was not easy.

[sighs]

Meredith... you drowned in the Elliot Bay.

You remember that? Yeah, that sucked.

Who's a good boy? Who's the best dog?

Oh, this is gonna take a while. Who is such a good boy?

[sighs] We don't have a while. She's running out of time.

Who's the best dog?

[phone rings]

Tell me. Her temp's still only 86.

There's still no heartbeat.

We're hoping once she warms up... I want to go in there.

No. There's risk of brain damage.

I need to go in and... Derek.

You can't. Not for Meredith, not for anybody. You're in no shape.

[sighs]

It's not good.

Is she still cyanotic? What was her initial temp?

What is taking so long? Dr. Yang.

It's not good. They're doing everything they can.

I... You should maybe, um... prepare yourselves.

I have to go. My Jane Doe's awake.

I'll come in with you. Iz, you'll let us know.

Prepare ourselves? That's...

That's what we tell the families before we call time of death.

She's gonna be OK. Sometimes you're wrong.

Uh-uh. No.

Cristina. I'm not doing this.

Cristina.

[sighs] She's gonna survive this.

She's gonna survive this. She's gonna survive this.

She's gonna survive this. She's gonna survive this.

[bell tolls] [woman] Meredith?

Meredith.

I don't know if you remember me. I was your mother's scrub nurse.

I died from... Liver cancer.

Bonnie? She remembers me. You remember.

You were a very important patient for her.

What are all of you doing here? Is this...

It's not heaven. We're here because you called us here.

I didn't, did I?

Tell us about the water, Meredith.

You do not have the authority to speak to me in that way. You are a bug.

I need you to hold still. [panting]

Go ahead.

Burke usually writes for Lorazepam when she's like this, You're amateurs.

But I don't want to bother him. Get me out of this bed. [panting]

Do it. Give it to her.

Who do you think you are? This is a day she should sleep through.

Do you even know what you're doing? Get me Richard.

I am Dr. Montgomery. You need this oxygen. I need you to lie back.

[sobbing] No, no. I'm not supposed to be here.

This wasn't in your plan today. I get that, but we're trying to take care of your baby.

[sobbing] You know, I need you to calm down.

[sobbing] Just tell her... Tell her you are gonna take me home.

Tell her... You have to talk to my husband.

This... This is Dr. Karev. He's my intern.

What? You're not... You lost your ID.

We don't know where your family is yet. I know you, you're my...

No. I found you on the dock after the accident.

What dock? What... What accident? What happened?

You were in the ferry.

You don't remember?

No. What about your name?

My name? [sobbing] I don't know anything. Shh.

Shh. Shh. I should know my own name.

I'm having a baby. I don't even know my own name.

She can't remember anything from before the accident.

It could be head trauma, it could be psychological from the shock...

Retrograde amnesia, could be just transient, right?

Well, that's the hope.

You know, I'm worried about her lungs too. Get a chest x-ray and an ABG.

OK. [phone rings]

Hey, you OK? You want to be with your friends?

No, I'm... I'm on this.

You sure? Yeah, it's just...

I don't know, Meredith always makes me think...

I don't know, screwed up people have a chance.

[beeping]

[Richard] I'm in. Start the warm fluids. Hold CPR.

Anything? [Preston] Heart is still.

No movement, no fibrillation. Nothing?

Nothing.

Re-starting CPR.

Stevens, get out of here. I just...

Oh, my God. Go back outside and wait.

With Yang and O'Malley. Cristina isn't...

She left.

She left in the middle of her shift? Where did she go?

[bell tolls]

Meredith, I need you to understand. This is important.

You can't screw around. Doc.

All right, there's no time for that.

You don't have the time and we don't have the time.

I drowned, that's all. I drowned.

Meredith, please, listen to us.

You have to listen to us. You have to.

Oh, no.

Ah!

[moaning]

[bell tolling]

I can't find the source of this bleeding!

I need gloves and surgical towels. It happens with Bonnie, baby.

You just gotta ride it. I can save her.

I can start an IV. There's no point.

Go to the OR and get me sterilized surgical instruments. Go!

Go!

[panting]

Meredith... are you ready to talk about this now, or you wanna waste some more time?

[beeping] [Bailey] It's been over an hour.

[gasping]

Is it... We need to prepare for the possibility...

Look, she is young, she is healthy, her temp's going up, and it's gonna keep going up, and her heart will start again.

That's the only possibility I'm prepared for.

[gasping]

Do you use moisturizer? Here. Take this.

Keep it behind the bar.

Wow, what is this? It smells like something burning.

It's gingerbread. Yeah.

You're not getting this, are you? OK, this is 99 cents.

OK? You can buy anything for 99 cents.

Oh.

Oh.

[clashing]

It's small. It's, um, a tiny size.

It has, uh, cat-type creatures on it. But it is a chair.

For 99 cents, you can buy furniture. That is America, man.

That's Taiwan, man.

You know, this ferry thing's pretty bad. Don't you think you should be...

I am coping.

OK?

I'm coping. So, uh, shut up and look at all my crap!

Callie, you're in charge of my interns.

Put them to work anywhere but here.

No, we can't go anywhere. Please let us stay here.

You're concerned. I understand.

There's been a disaster, and there's work to be done. Go. Now.

All right, they need bodies down in the clinic. Let's go down there.

Hey. Bailey's right. We can't help, Meredith.

All we do is sit around and go crazy.

I can't... I can't. I need to be here. Izzie, we're all freaked.

We just need to stay out of the way. Got it?

Let's go.

[sighs]

Do you or your immediate family have a history of cancer?

Um, I don't know.

How about heart disease or high blood pressure?

[sighs]

How about alcohol or drug use? You don't know any of this, do you?

I don't even know the sex of my baby or if I'm married.

I mean, I... I have a ring line, but I don't... have the ring.

So, what does that make me? I... I don't know.

[clashing]

Is it really bad?

You look... I mean, am I gonna...

No. No, no, no, no. It's, uh...

It's a friend. She was in the accident, too.

I'm sorry. Yeah. Well...

Things are tough all over.

I have no new information about your loved ones. I'm sorry.

But we are facing a serious blood shortage.

So anyone eligible to donate blood should see me.

If you're not sure, see me.

These need to go to the blood bank for testing. Thanks.

Who are those for? Meredith is AB.

[sighs] She's been down a long time, but, you know, she's strong.

We shouldn't give up. I wasn't planning to, but thanks.

OK. Is this stress related, or am I doing something specific to piss you off?

Because, believe me, we need to pull together.

Not "we". What?

You go on about how we need to do this for Meredith, and how strong Meredith is like you know her.

I do know her. No. George, Cristina and me, we know her.

We're her family. We were here long before you and George started fooling around.

Hey, he is my husband.

Stop saying that like it means something. It's a piece of paper.

You act like it gives you history or weight.

OK, enough!

Enough. I will not be run off. I am here. George wants me here.

And If you can accept that, that... that I love him, too, then maybe we could be, I don't know, friends?

Or you can keep on the way you are and be that person that George used to know.

You don't get to decide that.

George decides. Oh, I know what he'll decide.

And if I were you, I would think about it long and hard, because you cannot afford to lose another friend, not when people around you keep...

Keep... dropping like flies. Is that what you were about to say?

[bell tolls] So all of you just disappear at will?

What happened? I drowned. That's it.

Really? Then why are we here? Again.

I can't do this if you're gonna keep saying you drowned.

Do you have any idea how much that hurt?

You know, when you came into the ER, you were so brave, so strong.

I was in shock! And you guys doped me up.

And you know what? In retrospect, what happened to me really sucked.

I was young and beautiful and in love.

I was getting married in four months, and then I was dying.

And here you are, all happy and perky to be dead.

You think I want to be here? I swam. I fought... hard. The water was cold.

All right, but that thing in the tub, what was that?

It wasn't anything. It was...

You see me in the tub? I do not see women in the bathtub.

I wish I saw...

[sighs]

We know things. You had to think about it.

No daughter of Ellis Grey could... Not is so not an Ellis Grey thing.

Ah, it's a Derek thing. I would never...

You would. I know crappy things have happened to you, but how can you be a surgeon and have so little respect for life?

How... Oh, come on.

[moaning]

[phone rings]

[sighs]

Who are you here for?

What? I'm waiting on my wife.

Car hit her. [chuckles]

Can you believe that? On the ferry?

She was run over on the ferry.

They haven't said much.

Hard as hell to get any of these people to talk to you.

Yeah, I'm...

My girlfriend was there, too.

And I don't know...

I don't know what's gonna happen. It's out of our hands.

It's up to the doctors now. Yeah.

Yeah.

What's her name? Meredith.

I'll put her in my prayers.

Thanks.

[bell tolls]

I need to get in there and find the source of this bleeding.

Honestly, Meredith, it's just gonna happen again.

Where is something to wipe up this blood?

[bell tolls]

Fool me once... Oh, good, yeah.

Show up now and be a smart-ass. We have a job to do. Where are you?

It's a waste of time. She's gonna get it or she's not.

Get what? [Dylan] Yeah, the way I see it, It doesn't matter how you got here.

You're either in this thing or you're not. There is no in-between.

And cowboy here can get pissed off, because for all his tough talk, he's no different from Bonnie. He's stuck.

And you're not? No.

Oh, please. Stop. I had a good life.

I helped when I could.

And when that shell went off in my hands, I completed my task. I saved you.

[Richard] What about another epi?

We've been pushing epi an hour and a half.

Check another lead. [panting]

[beeping]

Asystole on three leads, sir. What about her temp?

Down to 86 degrees. Eighty-six?

It's 86 now? It was 89.

Afterdrop phenomenon. [panting]

[panting]

Water. Get me some water.

[sighs]

You broke her.

You called her ordinary.

You taught her time and time again that nothing she does, ever, is good enough.

Every good thing Meredith is... happened despite you.

She may not survive this... and that's on you.

That is on you. [Addison] Derek.

[sighs] The woman is just... She's a black hole, there's no question, but she can't help herself, and she certainly can't fix Meredith.

It's my fault.

Don't.

See, I knew what was going on and I wasn't there for her.

You are human... She was pulling away from me, and I...

[sobbing] ...I... I just...

You...

You think that she went in the water on purpose?

She knows how to swim.

She's a good swimmer.

Derek, you don't know that she's...

No, you do not get to break down. You do not get to fall apart.

Not when there's still a chance, and there still is a chance, Derek. OK?

OK. [pager beeps]

OK.

[sighs]

[bell tolls]

What are you looking for? Something strong.

The next time Bonnie decides to bleed out, I'm gonna dope her to high heaven...

Why are we still talking about her? If I find the source...

She can't be saved. This isn't fair.

I could save her.

If you'd just give me a chance, I could save her.

[bell tolls]

What happened in that water? I swam.

I fought. No, you didn't.

And you can't stay here, Meredith. I don't want to!

Yeah, you do.

It's easier.

But you can't, because George's dad died, because Izzie lost me.

And Cristina? When she was nine, she was in a car accident with her father, and he bled out right in front of her while they waited for an ambulance to arrive.

And Alex... Stop.

They are barely breathing. This will break them.

None of them deserves that. [sighs]

And this...

This is the big one.

So you pay attention.

Do you know what kind of miracle it is that Derek is who he is?

Do you know how rare it is that someone like him even exists?

He's still an optimist.

He still believes in true love and magic and soul mates.

He's waiting for you.

And if you don't come back from this, you will change who he is.

[sighing] Oh, God.

[bell tolls]

[sighs]

[sighs]

[rapid beeping]

[woman] Here we go. Move! Code blue! Get the cart in there!

I got it. [woman] You got the cart? Bring it in.

[rapid beeping]

What about a cardiopulmonary bypass?

We could do it here.

Page Burke and the surgical team. Get them here now.

You know, this is... This is quality Sudoku, Joe.

This is, like, $2 worth of Sudoku. Good to know.

[indistinct chatter]

Been no change.

I thought you should know. No kidding.

Well, some do come back from this.

You know what? I am not a civilian. I know the science here.

It's drinking time. Not yet.

You have a responsibility to Meredith. [scoffs] Uh-uh.

I don't do this stuff.

I mean, you should know. I go to great lengths.

You were there when I needed you. After.

After I knew you were gonna make it.

OK, I'm not proud.

OK? I just... [sighs]

I can't.

I can't go back there. I can't... I can't go back there and watch her.

[pager beeping]

Listen to me.

This is about you and the woman you call your person.

And you do know the science here.

And if she dies, and you are sitting here when that happens, I can't see you coming back from that.

Come and say goodbye to your friend.

[bell tolls]

I was swimming.

I was fighting.

And then I thought, just for a second...

I thought,

"What's the point?"

And I let go.

I stopped fighting.

Don't tell anybody. [sighs]

OK.

[bell tolls]

[sighs]

What?

Izzie. You can see her?

No.

But, sometimes, we'll be in the same place at exactly the same time.

And... [sighs] I can almost hear her voice.

It's like I'm touching her.

I like to believe she knows I'm there.

[sighs]

That's all you get.

That's it.

Moments with the people you love.

And they'll move on. And you'll want them to move on.

But still, Meredith, that is all you get, moments.

Is this really happening? I don't know.

This is your afterlife, not mine.

[sighs]

[bell tolls]

[phone rings]

Any change? No.

George, come on.

We can't do this today. Not today. What the hell did you say to my wife?

I didn't say anything. I saw her face.

We both said things. She was... I saw her face.

She didn't say anything. But why... What... Why would you pick now to throw down?

I didn't. I...

I can't lie about how I feel. Actually, you can.

You can. People lie all the time.

They hold their tongues and they wait.

You should hold your tongue, because if I'm not making a mistake, you're gonna look like a jerk, and if I am, I'm gonna need you.

I need you, and you... and you keep taking that away.

Put on the CO2 monitor. You page Dr. Burke?

He's in Trauma doing cardiopulmonary bypass.

On Meredith Grey? Yes, sir.

All right. OK, push one of atropine.

Billy, what's her temp? We're up to 96.

[sighs] That's good. Good. All right Now we just have to get her heart beating.

[Richard] OK, draw an ABG, push one of epi, a gram of mag and an amp of calcium.

[Meredith] I don't want to be here. I want to go back.

We were told there wasn't a lot of time.

I'm out of time? Well, we're not sure, baby.

Oh, God. I can't.

[panting] I want... Oh! I... I...

I had intimacy issues. Yeah.

Do you know how stupid that seems now?

Yeah, I do. It's not enough.

It's not enough, just a whiff of Derek or just... or Cristina.

I need to go back. Please.

[panting] I can't, I can't... [panting]

[rapid beeping]

[whispers] This is not gonna happen, not today.

You're not gonna die on me today, not today.

V- fib. Give me the paddles.

[rapid beeping]

Clear. [flatline]

[Richard] How many epis is that? Six.

[Richard] What's the external pacer? It's not catching.

[Richard] Billy, what's body temp? [Billy] Ninety-eight.

[Richard] So she's warm? Yes.

[flatline]

[sighs]

And dead.

["Sleep Don't Weep" by Damien Rice playing]

♪ Sleep... ♪

♪ Don't weep ♪

[beeping] V-fib.

That looks like V-fib. Shock her at 300.

Charged. Clear.

[flatline]

♪ Your face... ♪

[flatline]

♪ So wet ♪ You cannot give up. You understand me?

Do you know how much time, effort and energy, and... and... and resources and... drugs...

[flatline]

You cannot give up.

♪ Do what you must do ♪ I'm turning the pacer up to max.

If there was any ounce of activity, the pacer would've picked it up.

♪ ...another shoe ♪

♪ And you stood strong ♪

♪ I think I've found a place ♪

♪ Where I sleep... ♪ She's been on bypass for... almost an hour.

♪ My sweet love ♪

♪ I feel I will sleep ♪

[sighs] Cristina.

♪ ...don't weep ♪

♪ My sweet love ♪

Oh! I can't breathe.

This will pass. It won't.

[sobbing] It feels like...

[sobbing]

[gasping]

Mom? [gasping]

[bell tolls]

Go.

Go, Meredith.

[flatline]

Try again.

[flatline]

Try again!

[flatline]

OK, one more round of ACLS drugs.

One more.

[flatline]

[bell tolls]

[rapid beeping] Still V-fib. OK, charge to 300.

Clear.

[bell tolls]

You shouldn't be here.

Neither should you. Just keep going.

Don't be a damn...

You are...

You are anything but ordinary, Meredith.

Now run. Run.

[bell tolls]

[Derek] Is the lidocaine in? Yes.

OK, hold the compressions.

Come on. Come on. Just come on. Come on. Come on.

[flatline]

[beeping]

Sinus brady. OK.

[Bailey] We got a heartbeat?

We got it. [sighs]

[beeping] [sighs]

[door opens]

She's breathing on her own? She is.

She's been down a long time.

Do we know the brain function yet?

We don't know.

Derek, does... I haven't paged him yet.

I wanted to...

I'm giving her more time.

[door closes]

[indistinct speech]

Did you say something? Did you just speak?

Oh... Oh, Meredith.

OK, Mer, I don't understand you, OK? Try...

Try again. Try again for... Try again for me, OK?

[moaning]

What? I... I can't...

[sighs] Please, please don't be...

Your brain works. OK?

So all you need to do is form a word, please.

Ouch.

Oh, God.

Oh!

Hi.

I'm getting married to Burke.

Not that that should be anywhere on your list of thoughts right now, but just in case you slip in the hall later or...

You are the one person I wanted to tell.

Thank you for not dying.

[sighs]

[sighs]


[sighs]

Hey.

Hey.

[sighs]

[sighs]

Meredith...

My mother's dead, isn't she?

Yes.

It's OK...

I think.

[sighs]

I think it's OK.

So she's OK?

[indistinct chatter]

Yeah.

We never had that.

He never... felt that way about me.

I did.

You know, sometimes I think what a waste it is to throw away all that history.

I'm flawed.

I'm a... a wreck.

But you... It wasn't a game.

Sixty days.

Go 60 days with no sex, no other women.

Sixty days cold turkey, then, maybe, I'll believe you.

So I only have sex with you? [laughs] No.

No sex with anyone.

Grow up, Mark. [sighs]

Find another way to scratch the itch. Say I do. You'll give us a try?

A real try? The couple thing, no sneaking around, no booty calls?

If you make it, yes.

OK. We're on.

Oh, and, Addison? If I'm not having sex, neither are you.

Who would I possibly be having sex with?

[sighs]

How you doing? I hurt all over.

How's your friend? Well, she pulled through.

Good. That's great.

And... nobody's... Claimed you? [sighs] No.

No, nothing yet. So we still don't know anything?

Oh, no. Not so. We learned a lot about you today.

Well, we know that your heart is healthy.

We know that your blood type is B positive.

You probably eat pretty healthy, because your cholesterol level is excellent and you're not diabetic.

Your lungs don't look like smokers' lungs, and you don't drink alcohol on ferries in the morning.

And you're about... 32 years old.

[sighs]

And your baby is a girl.

Really?

A girl? Yeah.

[sighs]

[moans]

[chuckling]

And I think I am married. I feel married.

Yeah? Yeah.

See, now I know more about you than some of my closest friends.

[chuckling]

That's pathetic. [laughs]

You held it down. Thanks.

What you did today with Meredith... Everybody's talking.

Chief resident talk.

OK, I'm talking... to myself, but...

You're gonna give me a run for my money.

Yeah, I am.

I let you down.

And I get it if you don't trust me right now, but...

Please, George.

It's me.

It's us.

Please.

[Meredith] At the end of a day like this, a day when so many prayers are answered... and so many aren't...

["Swan" by Unkle Bob playing] ♪ By my side ♪ You've been gone a long time.

♪ By my side ♪ I know you think you died when the Alzheimer's started.

♪ You'll never be ♪ I know it's a relief to you.

♪ I'm fake at the seams ♪ I know.

♪ I'm lost in my dreams ♪ But it doesn't feel like a relief to me.

♪ I want you to know ♪ I'm not relieved.

I miss the sound of your voice.

I miss talking to you.

♪ And you're never coming home again ♪ I miss you.

♪ And you're never coming home again ♪

♪ And you're never coming home again ♪ I dyed my hair...

♪ By my side ♪

...for the ladies. [chuckling]

♪ You'll never be ♪

♪ By my side ♪

♪ You'll never be ♪

♪ By my side ♪

♪ You'll never be ♪

[Meredith] We take our miracles where we find them.

♪ You'll never be ♪

[Meredith] We reach across the gap...

and sometimes... against all odds... against all logic... we touch.

♪ I wanted to tell you I'd changed ♪

♪ I wanted to tell you that Things would be different this time ♪

♪ I see you ♪

♪ You see me ♪ Izzie.

♪ Differently ♪

♪ I see you ♪

♪ You see me ♪

♪ Differently ♪

♪ You tell me that you love me But you never want to see me again ♪

♪ You tell me that you love me But you never want to see me again ♪

♪ You tell me that you love me But you never want to see me again ♪

♪ You tell me that you love me But you never want to see me again ♪