Porcupine Tree: Anesthetize (2010) Script

Intro


Fear of a Blank Planet


Sunlight coming through the haze. No gaps in the blind to let it inside.

The bed is unmade. Some music still plays.

Tv, yeah it's always on, The flicker of the screen.

A movie actress screams. I'm basking in the shit flowing out of it.

I'm stoned in the mall again. Terminally bored shuffling round the stores And shoplifting is getting so last year's thing.

X-box is a god to me. A finger on the switch.

My mother is a bitch, My father gave up ever trying to talk to me.

Don't try engaging me. The vaguest of shrugs.

The prescription drugs You'll never find a person inside.

My face is mogadon. Curiosity? Has given up on me.

I'm tuning out desires, The pills are on the rise.

How can be sure i'm here? The pills that i've been taking confuse me.

I need to know that someone sees that There's nothing left i simply am not here.

I'm through with pornography. The acting is lame The action is tame Explicitly dull arousal annulled.

Your mouth should be boarded up Talking all day with nothing to say.

Your shallow proclamations All misinformation.

My friend says he wants to die. He's in a band they sound like Pearl Jam.

The clothes are all black, The music is crap.

In school i don't concentrate And sex is kinda fun, But just another one of all The empty ways of using up a day.

How can be sure i'm here? The pills that i've been taking confuse me.

I need to know that someone sees that There's nothing left i simply am not here.

Bipolar disorder can't deal with the boredom.

Bipolar disorder can't deal with the boredom.


You don't try to be liked, You don't mind.

You feel no sun. You steal a gun to kill time.

You're somewhere, you're nowhere. You don't care.

You catch the breeze. You still the leaves.

So now where?


My Ashes


All the things that I needed Wasted my chances I have found myself wanting

When a mother and father Gave me their problems I accepted them all

Nothing ever expected I was rejected But I came back for more

And my ashes drift beneath the silver sky Where a boy rides on a bike and never smiles

And my ashes fall over all the things we've said On a box of photographs under the bed


I will stay in my own world Under the covers I will feel safe inside

The kiss that will burn me Cure me of dreaming I was always returning


And my ashes find a way beyond the fog And return to save the child that I forgot

And my ashes fade among the things unseen And a dream plays in reverse on piano keys

And my ashes drop upon a park in Wales Never-ending clouds of rain, and distant sails Distant sails

Sails


Anesthetize


A good impression of myself Not much to conceal

I'm saying nothing But I'm saying nothing with feel I simply am not here no way I... Shut up be happy stop whining please

And because of who we are We react in mock surprise

The curse of "there must be more" So don't breathe here, don't leave your bags I simply am not here no way I... Shut up be happy stop whining please


The dust in my soul makes me feel the weight in my legs My head in the clouds and I'm zoning out

I'm watching TV but I find it hard to stay conscious I'm totally bored but I can't switch off

Only apathy from the pills in me It's all in me, all in you Electricity from the pills in me It's all in me, all in you Only MTV and cod philosophy

We're lost in the mall, shuffling through the stores like zombies Well what is the point? What can money buy?

My hands on a gun and I find the range, God tempt me Well what did you say? Think I'm passing out

Only apathy from the pills in me It's all in me, all in you Electricity from the pills in me It's all in me, all in you Only MTV and cod philosophy


Only apathy from the pills in me It's all in me, all in you Electricity from the pills in me It's all in me, all in you Only MTV and cod philosophy


Water so warm that day I counted out the waves

As they broke into surf I smiled into the sun

The water so warm that day I was counting out the waves And I followed their short life As they broke on the shoreline I could see you But I couldn't hear you

You were holding your hat in the breeze Turning away from me In this moment you were stolen There's black across the sun

Water so warm that day I counted out the waves As they broke into surf I smiled into the sun


Sentimental


I never want to be old And I don't want dependence

It's no fun to be told That you can't blame your parents anymore

I'm finding it hard To hang from a star

I don't want to be Never want to be old

Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way wish away each day


I don't really know If I care what is normal

And I'm not really sure If the pills I've been taking are helping

I've wasted my life And I'm hurting inside

I don't really know And I'm not really sure

Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way wish away each day


Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way wish away each day


Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way wish away each day


Way Out of Here


Out at the train tracks I dream of escape

But a song comes onto my ipod And I realise it's getting late

I can't take the staring and the sympathy

And I don't like the questions: "How do you feel?"

"How's it going in school?" "Do you wanna talk about it?"


Way out Way out of here

Fade out Fade out, vanish

I'll try to forget you And I know that I will

In a thousand years Or maybe a week

I'll burn all your pictures Cut out your face

And the shutters a down and the curtains are closed

And I've covered my tracks Disposed of the car And I'll try to forget even your name And the way that you look when you're sleeping And dreaming of this

Way out Way out of here

Fade out Fade out, vanish


Way out Way out of here

Fade out Fade out, vanish


Sleep Together

This means out

This is your way out

Do or drown

Do or drown in torpor


Leave no trace

All my files erased

Burn my clothes

Burn my Prada trainers

Let's sleep together Right now Relieve the pressure Somehow Switch off the future Right now Let's sleep forever


This is fate

This is your escape

Leave here now

Leave here, like it's alright

Let's sleep together Right now Relieve the pressure Somehow Switch off the future Right now Let's sleep forever


What Happens Now?


So I got all these things, but so what?

In the end you can't take them with you

You think you can save my soul? Well OK Tell me, with all your conviction

What happens now?

What happens now?

Well I could be boarding an aircraft

With a bomb concealed in somebody's briefcase

And my body will spread through the heavens, across the sky

And my ashes will fall through the cloudburst

What happens now?

What happens now?

What happens now?

What happens now?


Normal


Here is my car, my phone and my TV

I've got it all but you can see through me

But am I here? It's kind of hard to tell

I do a good impression of myself But what's normal now anyhow?

Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way they wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way they wish away each day

Prescription drugs they help me through the day

And that restraining order keeps me well at bay But what's normal now anyway?

Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way they wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way they wish away each day


Sullen and bored the kids stay And in this way they wish away each day

Stoned in the mall the kids play And in this way they wish away each day


Wish I was old and a little sentimental Wish I was old and a little sentimental (You gotta see the waves, not the wine bottle)


Wish I was old and a little sentimental Wish I was old and a little sentimental (You gotta see the waves, not the wine bottle)


Dark Matter


Inside the vehicle the cold is extreme

Smoke in my throat kicks me out of my dream

I try to relax but its warmer outside

I fail to connect, it's a tragic divide

This has become a full time career

To die young would take only 21 years

Gun down a school or blow up a car

The media circus will make you a star

Crushed like a rose In the river flow

I am I know

I am I know


Dark matter flowing out on to a tape

Is only as loud as the silence it breaks

Most things decay in a matter of days

The product is sold the memory fades

Crushed like a rose In the river flow

I am I know

I am I know


Drown With Me


So you have been of use And you have been abused

You know you look pale today Your lipstick has gone astray

You sold out and lost your looks You gave away all your books You should drown with me

Your coil has been wound up tight Unwind it with me tonight You should drown with me Tyre tracks Fresh on the ground Where she will be found

Resting there in a stream Buried in green Orange filter sky Your drowning in family there When will you come up for air You should drown with me

Don't feel you let 'em down Cos they have already drowned You should drown with me


Tyre tracks Fresh in the ground Where she will be found

Resting there in a stream Buried in green Orange filter sky


You should drown with me

You should drown with me


Lying through my teeth again I've been bad again, black lies Skirting round the truth again To escape the look in your eyes

Cover up the facts again With the money men, disguise Losing my integrity Well it's lost to me, I don't mind

Feel my soul going Feel my soul colder


Blackening my soul again With another lie, it's my style

Burying my face again God I'm so ashamed, this time

Feel my soul going Feel my soul colder


Feel my soul going Feel my soul colder


Half-Light

Such a pale light

Such a long night

Pick up that key

Don't drop your gaze in your coffee

Is it me?

Do I look beautiful in the half light?


It's been so long

Years have gone

Since I belonged

Hold me please

Stay with me And I will sleep

I will go now

But I will be with you

Hold my gaze

Hold me inside you


It's been so long

Years have gone Since I belonged

Hold me please Stay with me And I will sleep


Telepath Carbon trapped under stone Brother mother pale body is thrown Only way I know to have fun Fill up my veins, my blood, my lungs ESP city - rainy and blue Burn down this town, I give it to you Aero shallow, photograph blind Black light, stage fright, coma divine No sense of time

Sever tomorrow

Exitless mind ESP Sever tomorrow

School out invective, losing my voice Film shredding on in multiple choice America calls, I must go Oprah saviour, I feel that low No sense of time

Sever tomorrow

Exitless mind ESP Sever tomorrow


No sense of time

Sever tomorrow

Exitless mind ESP Sever tomorrow


Wedding Nails


Strip the Soul

This is my home, this is my own, we don't like no strangers Raise the kids good, beat the kids good and tie them up

Spread it wide, my wife, my life, push the camera deeper I can use, I abuse, my muse, I made them all

This machine Is there to please Strip the soul Fill the hole A fire to feed A belt to bleed Strip the soul Kill them all They are not gone, they are not gone, they are only sleeping In graves, in ways, in clay, underneath the floor Building walls, overalls, getting bored, I got faulty wiring Brick it up now, brick it up now, but keep the bones

This machine Is there to please Strip the soul Fill the hole A fire to feed A belt to bleed Strip the soul Kill them all


This machine Is there to please Strip the soul Fill the hole


.3

Black the sky, weapons fly Lay them waste for your race


The Sleep of No Dreaming

At the age of sixteen I grew out of hope

I regarded the cosmos Through a circle of rope

So I threw out my plans Ran on to the wheel

And emptied my head Of all childish ideals

The sleep of no dreaming The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no dreaming


I married the first girl Who wasn't a man

And smiled as the spiders Ran all over my hands

The sleep of no dreaming The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no dreaming


Made a good living By dying it's true

As the world in my TV Leaked onto my shoes

The sleep of no dreaming The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no dreaming


The sleep of no dreaming The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no feeling The sleep of no dreaming


Halo


God is in my fingers God is in my head

God is in the trigger God is in the lead

God is freedom, God is truth God is power and God is proof God is fashion, God is fame God gives meaning, God gives pain

You can be right like me With God in the hole you're a righteous soul I got a halo round me, I got a halo round me I'm not the same as you Cos I've seen the light and I'm gaining in height now I got a halo round me, I got a halo round me

I got a halo round my head God is in the cellphone God is in the net

God is in the warning God is in the threat

God is freedom, God is truth God is power and God is proof

God is fashion, God is fame God gives meaning, God gives pain You can be right like me With God in the hole you're a righteous soul I got a halo round me, I got a halo round me I'm not the same as you Cos I've seen the light and I'm gaining in height now I got a halo round me, I got a halo round me Cos' I got a halo round my head I got a halo round my head


You can be right like me With God in the hole you're a righteous soul I got a halo round me, I got a halo round me I'm not the same as you Cos I've seen the light and I'm gaining in height now I got a halo round me, I got a halo round me

I got a halo round my head


Cos' I got a halo round my head